If only I had the guts to feel this way.
If only you'd look at me and want to stay.
If only I'd take you in my arms and say,
I won't go cuz I need you now.

-If Only- Hanson

The words mean a lot more when they're separated from the music. In song, it just sounds like a peppy tune.

So I went to Duncan's last night and we started a fire in the field near his cabin in the sleet/ hail. It wasn't as bad as it sounds. Blew up some aerisol(?) cans and duncan pushed over dead trees and broke logs with his hands (the alter ego for his superhero isn't very convincing.) And then we stood around and listened to Sam Carlson bitch about how cold he was until I threatend him with the axe I was holding.- that's a lie, he still didn't stop.
Jesse Levit (omg! I know) and Dylan got really high and bent a cheap samuri sword into twisted shapes and pretended they were various characters from horror movies.
We threw glow sticks into the fire, I highly suggest it.
They get really bright and do wierd stuff.
Duncan lit fire crackers and threw them at Ashley and Casey and everyone chuckled.
We trudged back through the cow shit to our cars and then back to Duncans house where we spent the remander of the night watching Ferris Bueller's Day Off and Jackass 2 (ughh).
I came home at 5 to pack for ski team, which I have just found out is cancelled!!!
Goodnight!